December 21, 2012

• Peppermint

  When I originally decided I wanted to learn how to play the Cello it was because it reminded me of the voice of the guy I liked at the time. That has evolved into true love for the instrument now. I love the sound and the feel of the Cello, the vibrations, the sensations that it causes In my fingers as I use the bow to play it. I am hardly even a novice at it, but I still love the Cello to death. I can’t wait to get the broken string fixed.

  I had a good night sleep last night. I at least for 7 hours of good sleep due to the fact I went to bed earlier. I was so wiped out after seeing the hobbit and writing my last post that I just wanted to sleep, to just crash and dream and rest. It didn’t take me long to surrcumb to the dream world.

  I had an interesting dream last night. A lot of it is fuzzy, but the most important part I still remember. I had this dream about Ronnie last night (no doubt triggered by the fact we talked last night and I was thinking about him). He was over here at my house, and he was actually living here I think. I think the crowning event of the dream was when he kissed me. I could actually FEEL the kiss, it was vivid and powerful, and I still feel it. My heart obviously speaks very loudly when it comes to him. I nearly forgot the dream, but something, a thought I guess triggered the memory to come back and now I am glad I remembered. I remember we just hung out in the dream and spent time together and stuff, it was really nice. I wish I remembered more though, it was a nice dream and one I don’t want to forget. I thought about not saying anything about the dream, but I have no reason to keep it a secret, so I decided to share it. I am still pretty open when it comes to my feelings for him, I have nothing to hide, and no reason to hide them.

  I’ve been watching movies for most of the day. I’ve watched “Road to Terabithia”, “Toy Story”, and “Holes”. It’s been a while since I have seen some of those movies, and it was nice to see them again. I ate some of the left over movie popcorn from yesterday, and also had some of these white chocolate covered almonds that I found upstairs.

  I have been working on some song lyrics and new poems today. I don’t know how long it will take me to finish them, but when I do I’ll share some of them on here. I love sharing the stuff I write with you guys. I hope to actually be able to make music for the lyrics I write someday. It will probably be a while, but someday I’ll share some songs when I finally learn how to play an instrument.

  I went to the store earlier and bought some dark chocolate peppermint candy, peppermint ice cream, and some cherry chocolate, and raspberry cheesecake flavored cocoa. I was originally going to buy some white chocolate cocoa, but they were out, so I got those flavors instead. I am not surprised in the least that it was gone; it has been dreadfully cold this week. The cocoa supply at the store was down in general, not just the white chocolate, it was obvious that it is a very popular item lately.

  I usually do not buy candy, but I was craving peppermint and chocolate like crazy today. I usually would not listen to my craving, but it’s almost Christmas, so I can have a little bit of fun.

  I spent some time this evening revisiting the memory of over 2 years ago when I was on the Tonight Show with Jay Leno. My family and I were backup singers for the Smashing Pumpkins. I had fun, but I think I looked dreadful on camera, not to mention I was way more overweight back then. I had fun, but it is still one of my most embarrassing memories ever. My mom made us dress like we were going to church and we were backup singers for a ROCK BAND! I am not the only one that thought it was off. I’ve looked at comments from various places and a lot of people thought we didn’t really do that great. It would have been fine if it was just my brothers and sisters, or even just me, Linda, and my brothers, but it was our whole family and we didn’t have the right sound or the look for the job. I would have done things way different if it was me in charge. I still pray that no one will ever find the video or see what I looked like, that would be horrible. I hate makeup so much and I looked like a clown in all that stage makeup. I never truly loathed makeup until that happened.

  I've been thinking about how nice it would be if Xanga added more fonts. When I type up my posts I type them up in MS Word and I use this font called Segoe Print. I wish they had that on here, I love that font. That is possibly one of the few things I dislike about Xanga, is it's lack of fonts. That font is pretty close to my actual handwriting, but unlike my handwriting it's actually readable and looks nice (haha).
  

  Anyway I’m going to go make some cocoa, read, watch some stuff, or something like that. I’m going to try and relax as much as possible tonight. It's been a good day today. tomorrow is going to be interesting for sure though. So many things are happening. 

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