March 17, 2011

• Emotion

  I am not afraid to say something when I feel like it. This has come in handy a lot for me lately. In the past, actually the not to distant past I was afraid of saying whatever I felt. I did not want to burden people or cause them problems at all. I started thinking about it a lot more though and I slowly realized that if I do not tell people how I feel I can actually end up causing them more trouble than if I do tell them how I feel. Also, I am a lot less stressed when I do not keep stuff in. I do not like to hide emotions, or feelings from people very much. I am a quiet person most of the time sometimes I don't communicate with people and all these feelings build up and I eventually burst and have to let everything out. I realized that it is probably better for me to just let my feelings out as they come, and not bottle up stuff, plus it's not that healthy anyway. It will also keep a lot of people around me from having to worry. If I just express one thing at a time instead of a whole bundle of things at a time i can benefit from it and so can they.

  I do not like to stress people out, i am very sensitive about how people feel. Making people happy is one of my primary goals in life honestly. I like to make people happy and help them with their problems. If I do not deal with my own the right way I will not be able to properly do this.

  My emotions are effected by a lot of things, books, music, environment, etc. If I am not careful sometimes I become overwhelmed and don't know what to do. My brain processes to much sometimes. I have always been an observer and not much of a talker except for when I write stuff. Everything around me is really stimulating and my brain takes in a lot at a time and sometimes it becomes to much. This is also one of the reasons why I prefer to have a small group of friends and not be around to many people at a time.

  I usually have to be really careful I do not overstimulate myself otherwise it causes me to become stressed. I think I am getting the hang of it honestly though. I am a lot better about not over doing things now than I was in the past. I am no longer afraid to express myself, or be myself most of the time now anymore. This feels very good. I still have a lot of progress to make but I have made a lot already.

  Now I just need to work on my social skills a bit more ha ha.

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