June 16, 2012

• Darik and Dylan (part 1)

  So it's been over a month and a half since I have seen Darik and Dylan. I made a commitment to just let go and not talk to them anymore. I kind of broke that commitment on Wednesday and wrote on Darik's Facebook wall. I know that probably wasn't a good idea. These two are extremely hard to let go of. My sub conscious seems to not want to let go. I dream about Darik and Dylan quite often, this has been the case for years. Even when I don't want to, even if I never think about the or see them my sub conscious never wants to let go and stop dreaming about them.

  Sometimes I like it and sometimes I don't. I am hoping that now I am pretty sure I will never see them again that my sub conscious will get a clue and let go of them once and for all.

  I have a strange feeling like it is going to be super hard because the way it ended with us was SUPER awkward. It wasn't great at all. Every time I try and tell them how I feel about something it always. Seems to backfire. I just wish they could understand me better. I know it is too late now and I really need to be serious about really letting go for good but it is just really unsettling me that it ended so bad.

  Anyway I will give more details later in the second part. There is no way I can put all my feelings on this subject in one entry, or even a couple. I am just going to let my feelings out a little bit at a time. I am hoping that If write it down here that I will be able to be more at peace eventually.

  This is all for now.

  By the way this is my first post using Xanga mobile

  PART 2
  

  PART 3
  

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